I haven’t yet figured out what makes you love someone and not another. Someone plays music with your heartstrings; by another it is cacophony, dissonance. I have spoken to Cynthia who is the main caregiver for my friend Robert. She says he is doing well, back in the nursing home, alert, not eating, and preparing to die. He is also eager to see me, as I am to see him. I’m off to New Jersey on Sunday to visit with Tamar & Co. for two weeks. Aaron and Jessica are coming down from Montreal for a few days after Christmas. But first I will take a trip to Rhode Island to visit Robert, to say a proper good bye.
Tamar and Aaron will be visiting their father who is also not well. If he wished, I’d be happy to see him. I probably won’t see him. Maybe I will. I don’t know. But I feel more resolved with him at this point. We made two beautiful children and that’s very important. That’s enough for me.
Taoist saying: Number seventy-four. If you understand that all things change, constantly change, there is nothing you will hold on to, all things change. If you aren’t afraid of dying, there is nothing you can’t do.Posted by leya at December 16, 2005 08:33 AM
Leya-
You have so many things going on, so many different directions...safe travels and my best wishes to you as the year draws to a close. I'll be thinking of you.